Jennifer Lopez called herself a fool and breaks down in TEARS as she says what Ben Affleck made her go through DURING…. See More

and her many high-profile relationships in between.

“I’ve been married four times now. I’m sure people watching from the outside were like, ‘What is this f***ing girl’s problem?'” Lopez says to open the documentary. “What I portrayed to the world was, ‘Oh, this didn’t work out, and it’s fine, and I’m good, and they’re good, and they were great, and I was great’ and all of that was kind of bulls***.”

Naturally, Affleck is a big part of the documentary, much to his reluctance at times, but his presence is key in helping Lopez show off a vulnerable side fans have never seen before.

Here are some of the biggest moments in her new documentary.